Close to the surface

I started seeing a new therapist last week which is only relevant to this entry in that we had the usual first “getting to know you” appointment during which I talked a great deal about my family history. (She was very impressed by just how sane I am, heh.)
Another point of relevance is that I’ve [...]

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Like Deja Vu All Over Again

Jamie was sick last weekend with a fever and stuffy nose and missed his first soccer game, a birthday party, and a regular get together with other families. I was off the Friday before last to take care of him, and then last Monday because I got what he got, and MD missed a day [...]

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Protected: Part 3

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Protected: What was lost

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Thing 1 & Thing 2

I came back from vacation with two big realizations. The first is a “duh” moment of re-awareness, while the second has prompted a lot of thought in a what happens next kind of way.
Realization #1 (duh): I like nature
Actually, I don’t just like nature. It feeds my soul in a way that I often minimize. [...]

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My adoption triad: My mother

I’m not sure how to approach this point on the triangle. I’ve written so much about my mom here. Just check out my archives from last July and August. It’s been almost a year since she died and I am in a completely different place now that started with me realizing (or re-remembering) that once [...]

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My adoption triad: My grandma

I’ve talked a lot here about my relationship between my grandma and me. I’m not even going to link – just check out the whole category if you’re curious. When I was a child she mothered me like one might expect and there was a lot that was normal about our relationship. I even benefited [...]

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My adoption triad: Part 1 (updated with links)

Just writing that title feels a little funny. I never thought of my story as part of the adoption narrative, but ages ago when Dawn and I were talking, she made a comment about kinship adoption being especially difficult because of the pre-existing relationships. Especially in a case like mine, where the adoptive mother was [...]

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Quiet

I know I’ve been quiet here. I write so many posts in my head these days and never get a chance to sit down and write them for real. Same with email -  I write emails to people in my head and then forget that I never sent them. I’m pretty sure this is just [...]

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Almost there

I got scolded a lot in my dreams last night. And I kept trying to get to my work calendar online and couldn’t. Typical anxiety dreams – I’m wrapping up a month-long series of events today and let me tell you, I am NOT an event management person. Sure, I’m competant and I get the [...]

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